Some news

Hello everyone! I can’t believe it’s been over a year since last time I wrote on my blog. I don’t have any excuse really. I have had ups and downs but it is funny because when I’m down, I don’t want to write and when I’m feeling better, I am unsure what to write about … More Some news


I am part of few DID groups and follow many blogs. The question around medications come back often. Disclaimer: Everyone is different and I do respect everyone’s choices. I choose few years ago to stop every single medications. I’ve replaced some by herbal medications but expect paracetamol and ibuprofen, I do not take any medications … More Medications

Flashbacks and DID

******** Trigger Warning ********   There isn’t a lot of things I hate about DID but the flashbacks are the worse for me. Today (Sunday) is my only day off so I always welcome a nice relaxing Saturday night followed by a long night peaceful sleep. But noooooooooooo ! My alters have other plans for … More Flashbacks and DID

The tombstone theory

Hello everyone, Something’s been bugging me for months now: Who am I ? As someone with DID, I don’t know who I am most of the time. I’m not talking about switching or alters but I am talking about me, Ama, the main host. For the past few months, I ask myself every day “what do … More The tombstone theory

Between 2 moods

I’m going on holiday on Sunday for a week. No no, I am not going somewhere sunny and fun, I’m going to see my parents. J. is coming with me of course (thank God, I don’t know what I would do without him there). Don’t make me wrong, I love my mum and my step … More Between 2 moods

Art and D.I.D

Ok it’s probably old news for a lot of people but I love what Toby Allen does. His “monsters” have been created to demystified mental illnesses. I think they are also a good way to explain a specific mental illness to someone else. Those monsters live inside some of us, they are invisible but are … More Art and D.I.D