Hello everyone! I can’t believe it’s been over a year since last time I wrote on my blog. I don’t have any excuse really. I have had ups and downs but it is funny because when I’m down, I don’t want to write and when I’m feeling better, I am unsure what to write about … More Some news
I am part of few DID groups and follow many blogs. The question around medications come back often. Disclaimer: Everyone is different and I do respect everyone’s choices. I choose few years ago to stop every single medications. I’ve replaced some by herbal medications but expect paracetamol and ibuprofen, I do not take any medications … More Medications
1 year ago, I lost a friend because I dared having a stomach ulcer on his birthday and had to go to hospital. 2 year ago, I’ve lost a friend because for the very first time (and last) of my life I’ve reached to her whilst being extremely suicidal and feared for my own life … More Feeling unapologetic
Have I ever written how much depression sucks in this blog ? I probably did few times but let me tell you one thing: DEPRESSION SUCKS ! SO ! FREAKING ! BAD ! The black dog caught me real good since the beginning of the year. I don’t seem to shake it off. Everything seems … More Depression is a life sentence
Hello. I cannot believe it’s been 7 months since last time I’ve written here. The thing is I love my blog, I love writing about DID and explaining what it is to live with a mental illness. But sometimes it’s hard. When I am very low, I don’t want to write because I’m scared that … More Where did the time go ? (Part 2)
******** Trigger Warning ******** There isn’t a lot of things I hate about DID but the flashbacks are the worse for me. Today (Sunday) is my only day off so I always welcome a nice relaxing Saturday night followed by a long night peaceful sleep. But noooooooooooo ! My alters have other plans for … More Flashbacks and DID
Hello everyone, Something’s been bugging me for months now: Who am I ? As someone with DID, I don’t know who I am most of the time. I’m not talking about switching or alters but I am talking about me, Ama, the main host. For the past few months, I ask myself every day “what do … More The tombstone theory
I’m going on holiday on Sunday for a week. No no, I am not going somewhere sunny and fun, I’m going to see my parents. J. is coming with me of course (thank God, I don’t know what I would do without him there). Don’t make me wrong, I love my mum and my step … More Between 2 moods
It’s going to be short post I think today (or not, we’ll see). This post is for my Little One, Emily. She has been asking me for quite some time to write about Raphael and I think it’s a great idea. Teddy Bears have always had a big place in my life and heart. When … More The second love of my life: Raphael
Ok it’s probably old news for a lot of people but I love what Toby Allen does. His “monsters” have been created to demystified mental illnesses. I think they are also a good way to explain a specific mental illness to someone else. Those monsters live inside some of us, they are invisible but are … More Art and D.I.D
D.I.D I say crazy ? 